Hey guys! x3

The last time i told you about this ************************** called Dango. -.-

Now Zombie too! >x(
He loves me so much that he can´t stay with me. O_o okay but now he ignores me completly. That sucks. -.- but i miss him very much.. but i think its childish to ignore me.

..and Dango called me. To say me that i´m pathetic and that i deserve it to get hit by him. O____O AND WHAT ARE YOU??? NOT PATHETIC??!! YOU BETRAYED ME, THE PERSON YOU CALLED "MOST IMPORTANT PERSON ON EARTH", YOU HIT ME (yes you hit a girl, bastard) AND SAY TO ME THAT I DESERVE IT TO GET HIT BY YOU?!?!?!?! AND WHAT ARE YOU DREAMING AT NIGHT?!?!? seriously you have no Penis and no balls.

What´s up with the guys?! Then i just hear "forget them and blah." It´s impossible to forget 2 best friends.

So i got a new (manly) best friend. O_O (lol i´m good in making friends^^) His name is Ben, he is 22 years old and not childish like the other two. -.- We´re the fighter for justice!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!!!
(female best friend is ~Sasukexkun i love her!! x3)

Maybe we are just two retarded guys who are laughing all the time and act like little childs! So that everybody who see us thinks:"omg this guys have no idea about this serious life."

Wrong. We already had to feel the Injustice in this world, we know what it means to be lost, to be betrayed by a friend, to get hit from this friend.

But different from almost all other humans, we believe still in justice and love! Because LOVE is the strongest energy in this universe!! > We will never stop to scream!!! >xD

To be betrayed...

To be betrayed by the most important person in your life is the most terrible thing what can happen. Because you don´t just lose this person...you know what´ll happen, but you are not able to believe it because your trust is so big.. You don´t know what to do, you can´t stop crying. Days and weeks are passing but the tears won´t stop. You´re hurt, your stomach hurts, you can´t eat, you can´t sleep, you´re so scared like never before, your stomach hurt so much that you´re not sure if you had to vomit, your heart is like a broken window, you´re lying on the floor, you´re screaming in the mirror, the wonderful memories almost kill you.. Till it happens. Till he betrays you. Till you hear what he says about you when he thinks that you´re not here. Then you forget the world. All the glass shards of your heart are exploding. Your sight is unclear. Its somehow black. You can feel a sting in your stomach. You are not sure if you have to vomit. Your whole body is shaking. You almost fall on the floor because your feet are shaking so much. You have no strengh left but you don´t want to be that weak! You´re trying to hide what happens with you. You´re staring at the wall and can´t see it. You don´t want to hide and now you see HIM. Your brain is exploding, you don´t know what to do or what to say. Just concentrating to hide what happens with your body. You just wish that this nightmare end. You touch him, he ignores you. Then you explode. Then the first hit. You know he hit you. But you couldn´t feel it. You are afraid. Maybe its too absurd for the brain. The next hit. You can´t feel it. And the next hit not too..
Then someone comes, you are not sure if he would help you so you scream "please help me!" He helps you. Than you´re lying in the bed. Not able to resist what happend you just want to sleep, dream something beatiful and never wake up..
On the next morning you wake up, see some scratches on your body, goes to the bathroom, look in the mirror and can see empty eyes. a face with no expression. A body with no feelings. after a few days a feeling comes over you called "Disappointment". and compassion for this friend, cause he was able to do this. You´re not angry.. after ca. a month you´re still disappointed. You have to think at this day almost 24 h a day.. Then it changes into hatred. Unbelieveable much hatred. Your feeling is a mixture of disappointment and hatred. Sometimes is the hatred so big, that you have to do sit ups or something like that, just that you not explode... and all that you want now is revenge...this word is everyday in your head..revenge..revenge...revenge...well since that time i can understand how Sasuke must feel..and all the memories, which i rememberd so happy are just pain now..

But i´m not obsessed with hatred or so. I want revenge but i´m not someone who stops living because of this! I´ll never give up!! I´m sure that just good things happen to me! Dango became a f*cking asshole, so it was better for me that we end our friendship! So its hard but just the best for me! But this is no excuse for him. For that what he did there is no excuse.

But i´m getting better!^^ My eyes are not empty anymore and i had to laugh so much with my new bf and of course ~Sasukexkun xD

Z--Freak

Oh god my life is so strange..^^"